Who can turn the world on with her smile? 
Who can take a nothing day, and suddenly make it all seem worthwhile? 
Well it's you girl, and you should know it 
With each glance and every little movement you show it
Love is all around, no need to waste it 
You can have a town, why don't you take it 
You're gonna make it after all 
You're gonna make it after all
How will you make it on your own? 
This world is awfully big, girl this time you're all alone

But it's time you started living
It's time you let someone else do some giving
Love is all around, no need to waste it
You can have a town, why don't you take it
You're gonna make it after all
You're gonna make it after all
- Mary Tyler Moore Show 

Lost in translation

Time has not removed these sentiments.
Only the image in my head has faded.
I see you less and less in dreams, as you bleed into the background.
You've run so long, I can no longer envision you.
I don't stop the tear that softens my heart as I see your face framed, poised, lingering everywhere.
Something connected me to you.
Something that was deeper then the surface of our reality.
I saw you deep into your dwelling place, hiding behind your words.

Your touch like the lyrics of a song that was never written.
How your feet carried you far from me.

I am not Your One but somehow you became mine.
I've prayed, surrendered, fought, let go, cried, laughed, sat, ran, I've tried everything to find the truth of our existence but nothing speaks, all remains silent.
The silence has become all I know of us, all that lingers is the wishing well of thoughts in my head.
A deep endless hole with no bottom and no end in sight.
The dreams I once dreamt, the kisses we once shared and the moments our words were spoken.
All became lost in translation.

I want you still, though my heart has obeyed your wishes.
I will want you until I no longer feel a brush of weakness every time your name is spoken.
The day I can walk by you and time no longer stands still, only then will I be free of you, as you have become free of me.

loneliness

Who knows what this feels like 

the constant emptiness 

the desire to reach out and feel something that isn't there 

how long will i be left to suffer?

each breath a choice

I cried today just like yesterday

the sting of an abandoned heart

the ache of a lonely night 

the force of a breath i'd rather not take

i see them all around me 

happy couples holding hands

the laughter of a child

this loneliness has punctured my heart

i'm bleeding out .. but who will save me?

how do you mask the pain

thats making me feel insane 

i just want to be loved

i just want to be fixed

these walls surround me like a prison i can't escape 

you think i'm strong but i'm far too weak 

you think i have it all together 

but i'm dying at your feet 

one tear at a time this heart becomes a deserted place

I watch the traffic rush by

so many people 

so many lives

surrounded by life 

while dying a slow death of loneliness

no one see's me .. no one really hears me

my own heart has abandoned me 

my own strength has weakened me

i struggle to survive

i feel no life

i dance to make the pain go away 

i dance to forget 

i dance to save what's left of this life 

Jesus, will you save me? 

Quotes by bebe

- Patience ... life is a learning experience, not a rush to the finish line.

- Life is short .. wear stilettos 

- I'm not a QUITER .. I wouldn't even know how to start.

- Freedom is learning to accept yourself just as you are without a need for outside approval.

GOD DID NOT SET YOU UP FOR FAILURE

Contrary to popular belief -- Everything is NOT under God's CONTROL .. everything is under His POWER but not His control. Many things that take shape in this world are NOT GOD'S CHOICE, nor GOD'S WILL. Many of you ask why this or why that has happened if God is so good. But you confuse the fact that God has released dominion and authority to US in this world. He sent the Perfect Teacher to show us how it's done,  (Jesus). He left a book (the bible) to give us word for word detail on how to use the authority & power He blessed us with. He gave us HIS NAME to use over all powers and authorities that exist in the physical realm and spiritual realm. God clearly states in Matt 18:18 "Truly I say to you, whatever you bind on earth shall have been bound in heaven; and whatever you loose on earth shall have been loosed in heaven. He has given US the power and authority to make the DIFFERENCE we desire to SEE and EXPERIENCE here on this earth. It's not up to someone else .. it's up to YOU. If you sense a NEED -- then FILL IT. Don't wait around for someone else to do it. God showed you for a reason. He gave you a passion about that situation for a reason. 

We all walk around with free will. We all share the same opportunity to accept Christ or deny Christ. God is the RULER of the universe, He is ALL POWERFUL and IN CHARGE .. but there is a difference between being in charge of something and being in control of it. I do not believe God sends bad things our way to teach us, or humble us. Why would God raise something up to be His WILL that He empowers us to pray against? He has given us authority over sickness, poverty, depression, anxiety, fear. Those things were not sent from God to make you more of something, that's just what we like to tell ourselves so we can feel better about our situation. So we can feel more holy. No, when those things come it's time to rise up and do what Jesus did .... REBUKE THEIR AUTHORITY OVER YOUR LIFE.

God could step in at any time and change all the RULES He created but that would go against the laws He's set in place for the universe, for our salvation, for our freedom, therefor the world as we know it would come to an end. You see God is like any lover ........ He wants your heart because you choose to give it freely. He wants you to acknowledge Him because you WANT to experience HIM. When and if God steps in ... the choice will no longer be yours. We have to take responsibility for the AUTHORITY we've been given on this earth and stop blaming God for things that are not under His control. We must acknowledge when the storms came .. when sickness was presented before Jesus, He rebuked these attacks, He didn't welcome them to linger ... He didn't say, "I think I'll let you go thru this a bit longer to humble you" .. therefor you must agree tragedy is not stemmed from GOD .. and certainly not sent to make you stronger as people like to say. I'm tired of all this churchy jargon ... it only CONFUSES us when we're in the midst of a trial.

What I want you to get from this is ... Authority has to be taken against these attacks so you can be set free. So you can help free others. So you can stop BLAMING GOD and start USING THE AUTHORITY HE HAS GIVEN YOU. And the silver lining in all this is ... that God CAN and WILL use ALL THINGS for our GOOD, no matter how tragic ..... once we take our rightful place as His child and use the authority He has so freely given, there is nothing He can't use for our good. I know this was a long post, but this wisdom will help set you free, i know seeing God in this light has changed my life and understanding. I hope it will do the same for you. xx

never give up

When pushing toward a dream you can expect many losses along the way. Friends who no longer understand you. Family that no longer stands behind you. Memories that are being made without you. It's easy to find reasons to give up on the pursuit of your dream ....... but it will be harder to look yourself in the mirror everyday if you don't push thru these difficult times. No one ever told you it was going to be easy. Why do you think it's called a DREAM? Because for most people, that's all it will ever be. You have the choice to be the exception. Fight through the pain & the loss .. it will all be worth it in the end.

live your dream 4 u

People without a dream will never understand the importance of YOUR DREAM ...... they will never understand that it's nothing short of the air you breathe, the reason for your very existence, the mission you were created to accomplish. To try and make that point clear to someone who has never experienced such passion is like trying to hammer a nail thru a brick wall with your forehead. Totally IMPOSSIBLE and a complete waste of unnecessary pain. Don't waste valuable energy and time with such useless feats. Live your dream for YOU ... because you know better then anyone why you are here on the earth and what your mission is ........... Persistence wins! Never give up. You'll get there with or without your starting team. You will inevitably have to let some people go along the way. Its all part of the sacrifice you make to live an extraordinary life ......... the life that many would never comprehend or have the guts to chase. You get one chance at this thing called life ... don't let anybody rob you of your right to be all that you envision yourself to become. ♥